Back On, Back Off… The Wagon

Yesterday during one of my smoke break from work, I saw a long time friend of mine, who has struggled with alcoholism for many years. He wasn’t drinking at the time, but he did mentioned that he fell off the wagon again. I told him that it’s OK, that he just needs to try harder and work with his doctors to stop drinking. I also added, that I too fell off the wagon and that the last time that I drank was last Wednesday March 31 and that I try to look for activities that keep my crazy mind busy. But on my way to get breakfast this morning, I saw him again and he told me that he fucked up once again. He was drunk as hell and I could see it. I told him that everybody fucks up and that once he stops drinking, he needs to try harder to stay sober.

Day 2

I was planning on not drinking for thirty days, but it was impossible because some family members and friends came over Friday and Saturday evening to play dominoes… With beers, so I did drink, but I’m happy to say that I didn’t go on a bender. As a matter of fact, I went to bed early and didn’t drink on Sunday.

Feeling Guilty After Drinking

I don’t know why, but even if I haven’t gone on a weekend binge or bender in a while, and even if my wife is OK with it, for some reason, the next day after I drink, I feel guilt. People who know me, know that I’m a very happy person when I drink, because I like to talk a lot, joke around, listen to music but not get in trouble or problems. But I just can’t get around the fact, how the next day, for no reason at all, I feel so much guilt.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

No Alcohol Effect

Good morning and happy Sunday kids. I’m happy to say that yesterday my wife and daughter had a big time birthday celebration and they loved it.

As for me? I don’t know how many beers I had last night, but after everything was said and done, I went to bed and I didn’t continue drinking this morning the way that I usually do, which is fucking great. I don’t know, but I really think that something changed in my brain, because I’m not drinking like a crazy person, the way that I used to do on the weekends, which is good. As a matter of fact, today I feel great because I don’t have a hangover.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

My Crazy Relationship With Alcohol

Good morning and happy Monday kids! I hope you enjoy your day to the fullest and remember not to let an asshole fuck it up for you no matter what goes down.

As for me? The 4 beers left from Saturday night are still in the fridge, but It’s funny, because yesterday, the few times that I though about the beers, for some reason, I felt disgusted, so I left it at that, which reinforces the reason why I don’t see myself as an alcoholic. You see, when it comes to alcohol, I can take it or leave it, it’s just that when I do take it, I usually go on a weekend bender, which I’m happy to say didn’t happen this weekend, but I still have to be careful with that shit, because history has shown me, that I have a very crazy and unstable relationship with alcohol.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

Just A Couple Of Beers

Good morning and happy Saturday kids. After a couple of weekends without drinking, yesterday evening I decided to have a couple of beers, and to be honest with you, that’s exactly what I did. After having four 7 oz beers, I just didn’t feel like drinking anymore, so I got myself a sandwich, then coffee with milk and watched TV until I fell asleep. As a matter of fact, today I feel fucking great, as if I didn’t drink at all.

The truth is, that after everything was said and done, I was way too fucking tired to drink anyway, because even though I’m currently working from home, Monday through Friday I still wake up at around 4:30 am, start working at 8:00 am and by the time I finish my work day at 4:30 pm, most of the time, I just want to walk my baby and then take a nap. I guess yesterday was no exception or is this a new weekend thing for me? Are my mind and body trying to say something to me? As always, I’m an open minded person, so I’ll keep an eye on that.

I Just Said… FUCK IT!

Good afternoon and happy Friday kids. I could be lot of things, but one thing I’m not is hypocrite and a liar. As I have mentioned before, I don’t drink during regular weekdays or workdays, I only drink some weekends, and even though I’ve been working from home since mid-March, I only do it on Fridays after work, never during.

To get to the point, today I decided to have a couple of beers while I chill out at home after work, while listening to some old-school Latin freestyle and House music. The thing about me is, that when I decide to drink, I like doing it at home or at family gatherings, for some reason, I never liked bars or such places. At home, I can have a couple of family members and or friends over, talk, laugh and listen to whatever music we want in a safe environment, without having to worry that a drunk asshole, might want to start something with us. With that said… Cheers kids!