OK kids, I am happy to say, that today I have been alcohol for 12 days and I feel fucking great! Specially because I don’t have to deal with hangovers and all the other shits that come with them. I know that it hasn’t been that long, but something is better than nothing.
On another note. Even though I do not gamble, today I am driving my wife, her mother and a friend to a casino in Connecticut. You see, I believe that getting out of my comfort zone, is particularly important for me, in order to stay alcohol-free. I must do things that keep my mind busy, especially during the weekends, since I am a weekend binge drinker. The thing is, that I cannot be afraid to experience new things in life. I know that from time to time, the road ahead is not going to be an easy one, but if I believe in myself and with the support of family and friends, I will make it.
Yesterday I went to my second AA meeting in a long ass time, and I have to say, I really enjoyed it, because I’m following my shrink’s advice, that since I suffer from social anxiety, I don’t have to share, but just listen. I guess the hardest part about going to meetings is, pushing myself out of my comfort zone, even though I feel uncomfortable at first.
Good morning and happy Thursday kids, I hope that wherever you are in this crazy rock we call planet earth, you are enjoying your day.
As for me? I am happy to report that today I have been sober for 10 days… Yep, that’s right, 10 motherfucking days… WOO-HOO! Next week, I have an appointment with my shrink Dr. C and to be honest with you, I’m really going to start working with him on the internal issues that I have been dealing with, since I was a kid, like feeling lonely and not loving myself. It is crazy, but during the past week, I had many family members, friends and others, come to me to tell me how much they love me, how much they care about me and that they know that I can beat this shit. There is so much love around me, it is just fucking incredible.
OK my homies and homettes, I know for a fact, that you didn’t miss me for shit and maybe , just maybe, you didn’t even notice that I was gone for a while, but now I’m back. So here I go.
So I finally decided to get my shit together and get sober. Today has been 8 days since I last had alcohol and I went to an AA meeting last week. Actually, I’m planning on going to at least 2 to 3 AA meetings a week. You have to understand, that I don’t drink everyday, I’m just a once in a while weekend binge drinker, who with no problems, can go for months without drinking.