Yesterday during one of my smoke break from work, I saw a long time friend of mine, who has struggled with alcoholism for many years. He wasn’t drinking at the time, but he did mentioned that he fell off the wagon again. I told him that it’s OK, that he just needs to try harder and work with his doctors to stop drinking. I also added, that I too fell off the wagon and that the last time that I drank was last Wednesday March 31 and that I try to look for activities that keep my crazy mind busy. But on my way to get breakfast this morning, I saw him again and he told me that he fucked up once again. He was drunk as hell and I could see it. I told him that everybody fucks up and that once he stops drinking, he needs to try harder to stay sober.
I know that nobody actually gives a shit or a flying fuck, but I haven’t posted anything in this here crazy and boring blog of mine in almost 2 months. Why? Because I know that nobody really gives a flying fuck what I post anyway. But even after all is said and done, I’m happy to say that today is my 4th alcohol free day and that I’m working on getting some shits in my life together. Other than that, I’m still alive.
I’ve always said, that if not everything, at least somethings happen for a reason.
Yesterday after work, I watched one episode of two different TV series that I like, and to my surprise, both of them were about a person who fell off the wagon. Now what are the odds of that? I’ve always hated math, so I don’t know, but it really got me thinking.
OK kids, I thought that I wasn’t going to drink for the new year celebration, but while with family and friends, I just forgot about everything and as usual, I binged for a couple of days.
But no worries, last time that I drank was 2 days ago and after I got really fucked up and felt like shit afterwards, I’m not really not planning on drinking again in the near future.
Good morning and happy humpday boys, girls and others. I am happy to report, that today I have been alcohol-free for 7 days… WOO-HOO! With the 3 day weekend coming up, I really don’t know what’s going to happen, but one thing that I’m 100% sure of is, that I ain’t drinking for shit today, and that’s what really matters to me… TODAY!
Well, we are just few days away from the begging of a new year, but even though I fucked up last week and went on a binge drinking weekend for four days… trust me, I’m not planning on doing that shit this weekend. Right now, I’m really looking forward to starting a new year with a much different mentality. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I know that I keep fucking up, but who knows what 2021 might bring for me.
It’s funny, but some people might classify me as an everyday average alcoholic, just because when I start drinking, I can’t stop. The thing is, that I consider myself a “weekend binge drinking par-time alcoholic”. Why? Because I only drink SOME weekends, but when I do, I do it for a couple of days none stop. Other than that, I’m OK with alcohol, because I don’t have to or want to drink everyday anyway.
As a matter of fact, there have been many times, when I have been alcohol free for months, without a problem. I mean don’t get me wrong, I do have a drinking problem, but only when I have the first beer on any given weekend. That’s the reason why I’m happy to say, that today I have been alcohol free for 6 days… WOO-HOO!