50 Days Without Drinking!

Good afternoon and TGIF kids. I am happy to inform you, that today I have been without drinking for 50 days and I feel fucking great. It hasn’t been easy, but I made it.

To be honest with you, there has been many times, including this morning, that for personal shits that are going on in my life, I felt like drinking like a crazy person, but I didn’t.

When something that makes me want to drink happens to me, I just ask myself one question. Is alcohol going to solve the problem or make it worse?

I’m Still Not Drinking

Good afternoon and happy Monday kids! Well at least it is for me, since it’s Labor Day and I’m off from the salt mines.


As for me? I am happy to say, that today I have been without drinking for one month and eight days and I feel fucking great. One thing about this time around is, that it hasn’t been as hard as the other times. I’m not going to lie, there has been a couple of times, when I wanted to have a couple of beers, and that includes today, but if I don’t keep entertaining them stupid thoughts, they go away the same way they came in.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

Accepting My Bipolar

Yesterday I had my August session with my shrink Dr. C. and it was a very productive one, because I told him about the sudden bursts of happiness and sudden bursts of sadness that I have been experiencing for a long time, but never realized it until recently. Dr. C went on to tell me, that what I have been experiencing is called “rapid cycling”. I know that many years ago, aside from my OCD, he diagnosed me with Bipolar II disorder. But to be honest, my biggest mistake has been that I never wanted to accept his Bipolar II diagnosis. I have always accepted my OCD, but not my Bipolar, and because of that, Bipolar has been affecting my life in a negative way for many, many years.

We talked about different medications that can help me with that, but first he wants me to get blood work done, to make sure that everything is fine. So, this coming Saturday, I’m going to the lab to get it done. Once I get the results, we’ll take it from there. To be honest, I have finally realized that he was right, when he used to tell me that when I drink alcohol, I was self-medicating. I guess I just didn’t want accept what was going on in my crazy and complicated mind.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Sober, Abstinent or Alcohol-Free?

I never had a problem with daily drinking, because I only drink on the weekends, as a matter of fact, I can go months without drinking with no problem at all. But most of the times, when I do decide to drink, I binge for days. So, because of that reason, I have been wondering if during those times that I don’t drink, I am sober, abstinent or alcohol-free. I mean, don’t get me wrong, whatever it is, as long as I’m not drinking, I’m happy with it. That’s what really matters.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Keeping My Crazy Mind Busy

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As I mentioned on yesterday’s super boring post, I got out of my comfort zone and drove about an hour to a casino in Pennsylvania with my wife, her mother, her stepfather and two friends.

I have to say, that even though I’m not into gambling, getting away from the every weekend routine, really helped me keep my crazy mind away from my weekend binge drinking. As a matter of fact, after the trip, I got home so tired, that I fell asleep as soon as my body hit the bed. So there you have it, a busy mind keeps the alcohol away.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Outside My Comfort Zone

OK kids, I am happy to say, that today I have been alcohol for 12 days and I feel fucking great! Specially because I don’t have to deal with hangovers and all the other shits that come with them. I know that it hasn’t been that long, but something is better than nothing.

On another note. Even though I do not gamble, today I am driving my wife, her mother and a friend to a casino in Connecticut. You see, I believe that getting out of my comfort zone, is particularly important for me, in order to stay alcohol-free. I must do things that keep my mind busy, especially during the weekends, since I am a weekend binge drinker. The thing is, that I cannot be afraid to experience new things in life. I know that from time to time, the road ahead is not going to be an easy one, but if I believe in myself and with the support of family and friends, I will make it.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

8 Days Sober

OK my homies and homettes, I know for a fact, that you didn’t miss me for shit and maybe , just maybe, you didn’t even notice that I was gone for a while, but now I’m back. So here I go.

So I finally decided to get my shit together and get sober. Today has been 8 days since I last had alcohol and I went to an AA meeting last week. Actually, I’m planning on going to at least 2 to 3 AA meetings a week. You have to understand, that I don’t drink everyday, I’m just a once in a while weekend binge drinker, who with no problems, can go for months without drinking.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!