I Feel Crazy Good!

Yesterday I had my monthly virtual session with my shrink Dr. C and to be honest, he wasn’t disappointed with my on and off weekend drinking, because I’m not letting it get out of control like I usually do with my weekend binge drinking.

Other than that, we talked about the challenges that I’ve been facing while working from home since mid March, my OCD intrusive thoughts, my Bipolar II racing thoughts, depression and mania. I told him that I’ve been feeling pretty good, but that I take the mania over the depression any time, because I’m full of energy and I get a lot of things done. He laughed and told me that most people say the same thing. There was no change to my crazy meds, which are Prozac 80mg, Lithium 300mg and Ambien 10mg. The next time I’ll see him, will be in February. WOO-HOO!

What The Fuck Am I Doing?

Sometimes, the same way that I deleted all my social media accounts, I feel like deleting this fucking crazy and boring blog of mine. I mean, who the fuck cares about what I post? I just keep wondering… what the fuck am I doing? What’s my whole fucking point? What the fuck do I want out of it? And to be honest, I don’t have one fucking answer to those questions… not one!