A Very Fucking Depressing Day

I am happy to say, that even though I am a weekend binge drinking alcoholic, today is my 7th alcohol free day. WOO-HOO! But not so fast boys, girls and others, when it comes to my depression, today has been a very… very… very fucked up day for me and even then, I had to work, because the bills will not pay themselves. To be honest, there were a few times I felt like drinking, but that is not the answer. But hey! What the fuck? I take my crazy meds every day, I still have my bad days. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my shrink Dr. C, I just hope that it is a better day.

Day 2

I was planning on not drinking for thirty days, but it was impossible because some family members and friends came over Friday and Saturday evening to play dominoes… With beers, so I did drink, but I’m happy to say that I didn’t go on a bender. As a matter of fact, I went to bed early and didn’t drink on Sunday.

Everyone And Their Mother Stinks!

I look around and feel sorry for how pathetic and miserable some people are. They choose to live their lives alone, simply because they blame everyone and their mother for every little bad shit that happened to them from day one, even if in some cases, they as adults are to blame for poor judgement and bad decision making.

I know life is hard… some times, but only because I’m having a bad day or had some bad life experiences… like everyone else, doesn’t mean that I have to take it out on the rest of civilization. The first thing that they need to do is, stop the fucking pity party, grow some cojones and stop blaming others for their own fuck ups, little by little get their shit together and then welcome people into their lives. I know that it is easier said than done, but it is doable.

Peace out my peeps!

Feeling Guilty After Drinking

I don’t know why, but even if I haven’t gone on a weekend binge or bender in a while, and even if my wife is OK with it, for some reason, the next day after I drink, I feel guilt. People who know me, know that I’m a very happy person when I drink, because I like to talk a lot, joke around, listen to music but not get in trouble or problems. But I just can’t get around the fact, how the next day, for no reason at all, I feel so much guilt.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

The Energizer Tony

Usually, I drink a large cup of coffee with milk in the morning in order to keep awake while I work, but when that doesn’t work, I drink from 1 to 2 energy drinks, as a matter of fact, the higher the caffeine content the better. But as we all know, too much of a good thing is bad, so I decided to try and keep away from energy drinks as much as I can, because it doesn’t help with my anxiety either. Right now, I haven’t had one in four days and to be honest, it seems to me that my anxiety is getting better.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

30 Days Without Alcohol

Even though I haven’t binge or gone on a weekend bender in a while, yesterday I decided to stop drinking for 30 days, which is not going to be hard, since I only drink on the weekends. So today is actually my 3rd day without alcohol. Believe it or not, the longest that I have gone without drinking is 5 years, and that was from July 2010 to July 2015.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

No Alcohol Effect

Good morning and happy Sunday kids. I’m happy to say that yesterday my wife and daughter had a big time birthday celebration and they loved it.

As for me? I don’t know how many beers I had last night, but after everything was said and done, I went to bed and I didn’t continue drinking this morning the way that I usually do, which is fucking great. I don’t know, but I really think that something changed in my brain, because I’m not drinking like a crazy person, the way that I used to do on the weekends, which is good. As a matter of fact, today I feel great because I don’t have a hangover.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!