A Medical Day

Good morning and happy Tuesday kids. Today I have a really busy day to say the least. Right now, I’m waiting to see the urologist, but I’m not sure if he is just going to look at the CT scan results with me or eventually stick a camera up my pee pee. I hope it’s not the latter, since there hasn’t been any more blood in my urine.

Later on, I have an appointment with my GP, so we can go over the results from my lower back MRI that was performed last week. No matter what the MRI results are, I’m going to request that I’m cleared to go back to work as of tomorrow, because my lower back has been getting better. Other than that, life is good.

50 Days Without Drinking!

Good afternoon and TGIF kids. I am happy to inform you, that today I have been without drinking for 50 days and I feel fucking great. It hasn’t been easy, but I made it.

To be honest with you, there has been many times, including this morning, that for personal shits that are going on in my life, I felt like drinking like a crazy person, but I didn’t.

When something that makes me want to drink happens to me, I just ask myself one question. Is alcohol going to solve the problem or make it worse?

Tired Like A Motherfucker

Today I haven’t had any alcohol in 45 days and I’m loving it. But one thing that I have noticed is, that since I haven’t been drinking, I’m taking responsibility of things that I was neglecting while drunk.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s all good, it’s just that most of the time I’m way too busy and tired to even dedicate time to my hobby or even get some alone time.

Lonely In A Relationship

If you truly love someone, never make that person beg for your love and affection. But specially, never ever make that person feel lonely in the relationship.

Playing The Victim

It’s fucked up how so many people are in relationship, but only know how take, but never give back. Then, when their partner complains, they try to turn everything around and play the victim.

Mentally Trapped

Good morning and happy hump day kids! I hope that you enjoy your day to the fullest and always remember, DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT let no asshole fuck it up for you no matter what goes down.

Yesterday, after the video session with my shrink, I started to think that maybe, just maybe, my mood swing roller-coaster has to do with the fact, that I have been working from home since mid-March. The way that I am looking at it is, that I am not used to being home 24/7 and because of that, I feel the way that I feel.

I believe that what I need to do is to take breaks and go out for walks, so I won’t feel trapped in my own home. As a matter of fact, I am planning on starting my new routine today and that is the reason why I wrote this post while sitting in a park bench across the street from home. I really must learn how to let go and enjoy myself, because life is not just family and work, is more than that. The funny thing is, that my wife has always given me my space, but I have never took advantage of it. NOT ANY MORE!

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Enjoying Life Without Alcohol

Yesterday I spent most of my day at my wife nephew’s birthday party in New Jersey. No worries kids, even though I was offered beer a couple of times, I did not drink… well, except soda. The reason why I was offered beer was, that most people don’t know that I’m going to AA meetings twice a week. The good thing is, that when I turned them down, they did not kept pushing the issue, like so many people do when they are drinking.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!