I am happy to report, that today is my 10th alcohol-free day and I feel fucking great! Aside from that, yesterday I saw a longtime friend of mine, who has been struggling with alcoholism for many years. The thing about him is that unlike me who can go months without drinking, he can only stop for a few days and then all bets are off.
I’ve seen him a couple of times this week, he looked drunk, and he told me that he has been drinking for days none stop. When I asked him how many days has it been? He didn’t remember. When I saw him yesterday, he told me that he was coming from an alcoholism program, but on his way home, he stopped to buy some beers, because he couldn’t help it, as a matter of fact, he showed them to me in a plastic bag. He also mentioned that because of his drinking, he hasn’t been eating, which I understood, because when I go on a bender, is the same thing.
The truth is, that yesterday I saw a reflection of myself in him. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not comparing myself to him, it’s just that I imagine that I must look something like that when I go on a bender for a few days. I just wished that I knew what to say to him. But how can I help someone, when I can’t help myself?
I am happy to say, that even though I am a weekend binge drinking alcoholic, today is my 7th alcohol free day. WOO-HOO! But not so fast boys, girls and others, when it comes to my depression, today has been a very… very… very fucked up day for me and even then, I had to work, because the bills will not pay themselves. To be honest, there were a few times I felt like drinking, but that is not the answer. But hey! What the fuck? I take my crazy meds every day, I still have my bad days. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my shrink Dr. C, I just hope that it is a better day.
Yesterday during one of my smoke break from work, I saw a long time friend of mine, who has struggled with alcoholism for many years. He wasn’t drinking at the time, but he did mentioned that he fell off the wagon again. I told him that it’s OK, that he just needs to try harder and work with his doctors to stop drinking. I also added, that I too fell off the wagon and that the last time that I drank was last Wednesday March 31 and that I try to look for activities that keep my crazy mind busy. But on my way to get breakfast this morning, I saw him again and he told me that he fucked up once again. He was drunk as hell and I could see it. I told him that everybody fucks up and that once he stops drinking, he needs to try harder to stay sober.
Good morning and happy hump day kids, I hope that you enjoy your day to the fullest without letting an asshole fuck it up for you no matter what goes down.
As for me? Based on the app for drunks like me, today is my 9th alcohol-free day and I feel fucking great… WOO-HOO! As the days pass, I feel better and better, because my body is getting rid of all the fucked-up alcohol that I put in it during my last weekend binge. I’ve also been getting into the habit of taking my crazy meds every day, especially Lithium at night. Other than that, I’m chilling like a villain. So what’s up in your neck of the woods?
Good morning and happy Tuesday kids, I am happy to say that today is my 8th alcohol-free day and I feel fucking great! My only advise to those who want to stop drinking is, to do whatever the fuck works for them.
In my case, since I’m an on and off weekend binge drinker, I don’t have a problem staying away from alcohol on regular weekdays. Since I’m a beer drinker, even if someone was to offer me a case of beer on a Wednesday, I will gladly turn it down without thinking about it twice. Now, if the same scenario is played out on a Friday evening after work, then the story will have a different ending. Always keep in mind, that we drunks were not created equal.